I Will Not Be Broken: by Jerry White - Connect
Nicole Koons

Florida

4/21/2010 6:48:55 PM
I was involved in a near fatal motor vehicle accident on December 2, 2005 while driving to work. That morning has changed my life. I was just 23 years old. I was also working full-time and a student in the evenings. I was in a long relationship with someone whom I lived with and thought to marry someday. I never had trouble finding love or someone to date. My friends always told me how pretty I was and how beautiful I was. I don't think I ever truly believed them until now, when I look at old photographs of myself and see that girl I once was. I wish I could go back. I wake up every day hoping that the morning will be here yet again and I could choose to call in sick, instead of pushing myself to try and go in. But, it did make me realize who truly loves me. My ex-fiance',didn't. He didn't stick around. As soon as things got really hard he was gone. He kicked me out of the house we shared and treats me like I never meant anything for 5 1/2 yrs. I just finished with my 32 surgery and I'm finally starting to resemble that girl I once was. Finally, almost 5 years later, I see some light at the end of the tunnel. I still have some major surgeries to go and have been without dating someone for over a year, which before, I was never single. So, I'm learning about myself, who I am and who I want to be. I hope to someday look at this as the past and find the happiness I deserve. I am fortunate that God is working in my life and helping me through the hardest time of my life. If you are looking for someone to talk to, email me at firefly848@gmail.com. There have been 3 times I've tried to take my life, and I'm happy I had someone to listen. 
And I'm here to listen to you if you need it. -Nicole